Hi~

 Long time no see, ey? :'D

I´ve been thinking about continuing to write blog again for a while now, mainly because would like to practise japanese~ While I won´t do it here, I figured that I might at least post the english version on this page because why not.
After all it might help me get back on track, which is long overdue to be honest...

For the last 4, or something, years I´ve been borderline burned out since there are just way too many things that I would like or have to do, besides housework, work and general shit.
And as probably everyone noticed by now, several issues ~ mainly "lovely people", that brought me fully back into self-loathing, paired with the current "nothing to look forward to, everything is hopeless" pandemic~ I became absolutely incapable of dealing with stress hahaha.

So today I finally decided that it was time to try something that I tought about for a while, but didn´t because I felt like I wouldn´t be able to make enough progress that way (lol, I basicly made no progress at all in the last 2 years so it´s about time hahaha)
And that would be, trying to fit my main-interests into seperate weeks~

 I really have no idea how to say it but basicly I would like to have one week where I focus mainly on music related stuff, the next week I´d like to focus on all that YouTube fuss, then I want to focus on sewing, Make-up and fashion non-sense and then basicly just start with music again~
The only things that I´d still keep up daily, besides work and responsibilities are fitness and learning japanese.
And I might also want to try to give myself a day per week at which I really do nothing at all, which is something I usually only do when I am sick. And that doesn´t happen that much, at least not if we´re speaking of "socially accepted sicknesses". ( Yeah, I know. Looking at my recent progress it seems like I pretty much do this everyday but unfortunately this is not the case haha)


Given the circumstances, I´m not sure if I´ll be able to improve again from now on.. But I´d really like to become the person that I used to be in 2015/2016, before shit started to crumble back down, again.

I´m also it sure how long I´ll keep up posting one here this time (it´s kinda lonely buhu) and I don´t know if I´ll propperly do so during the "music" and "YT" weeks but it´s probably quite a good place for the sewing stuff~ So yay? xD~

Uh~~

 Hellow~~

I´m a bit motivated to write a blogpost haha

Maybe you read my last post.. Somewhere down there I´ve stated that I planned on changing my learning method and as it seems it´s actually going more or less good with that :D
I mean I still have a hard time motivating myself for basicly anything but at least I´m not borderline stressed out anymore..

Recently two members of my favourite band did a Twitcast together and I could understand them pretty well, so I´m slightly motivated to keep this new method up!

Anyways.
I´ve once again made a plan on the things that I want to finish or at least start this week and I´m gonna put some of them down here to keep track of my progress :D

So some things on my list are

- dyeing my roots (I haaate this soooo much, so I need to force myself xX)
- Fixing the dress that I´ve complained about a long time ago one here
- Customzie one Bandshirt so that I´ll finally wear it
- Film and edit a Video
-  Finally finish the Vocalmeodie for a Song I´ve been working on on and off
 and manage to get up earlier so that I can actually do things before work and not waste almost my entire week on being demotivated haha

Yeah.. I´m pretty sure this is going to be too much, especially since there are still things on this list which are not worth mentioning but well XD

It´s not gonna get better if I don´t try~~~

Yo~~

 Happy new year, I guess? xDD


Yeah, it´s been a while since I posted here.. (not too long but still)
December is just a month full of bad emotions for me, maybe you´ve noticed it in my Tweets and storys haha. But I just can´t stand Christmas.. Especially this year has been horrible, as this whole Corona stituation has been keeping me on low energy since march.. Really, I didn´t feel as bad as I did this year since my last year in school, which was the worst of my life so far haha~ but that´s another story~


Anyways, I once again wanted to write a post so that I can more or less motivate myself to be more productive again~ I´ve been planning to work on a few tings but keep it all a bit slower and don´t overwork myself like I used to do all the time.
For example I wanted to focus on just a few things for now, and then add others when I´m half way trough with it, or used to it.

First I wanted to work on my appearance again( yeah yeah, I know~ but being disgusted of yourself doesn´t make things better :'D), since I´ve been reaaaally letting myself down in the past months. I just looked constantly exhausted and tired, I mean.. not that I wouldn´t be but heeey xD
So that means I´d like to post more pictures again.. sadly just boring selfies for now because of the situation but well..
I already posted one on IG to get myself in the mood~ it´s old but I like it haha

Sieh dir diesen Beitrag auf Instagram an

Ein von @takatodora geteilter Beitrag

I also want to sort out some of my clothes but I´m just too lazy, especially too lazy to go to the Postoffice when I end up selling them hahaha

And I want to start sewing again, there are already some ideas for bandshirts but I need to get some fabric and the stores are closed.. maybe I can find something online but meh.. I wanna look at it first D:
So I guess that has too wait a bit..

Besides that  I´d also like to loose some weight~
Unfortunately I like eating too much xD But Babysteps~ we´ll get there~


Then I´ve decided to change my learning method~
I´ve been constantly stressing myself out too much and did too much at once, which resulted in me just being overworked and therefore unable to make good progress.
So I thought I should split my learning process up in different days.. Like.. One day I´m gonna focus on vocabulary, next on reading, next on listening and so on. Hopefully this will make it easier to digest..

I also really want to FINALLY finish the vocalline for the song that has been send to me some time ago..!
Recently I found out that Reaper seems to be just as nice as Winrar so I can keep on using it :'D And I also found a Midi-Piano thing, so I don´t have to use my voice to put in tones, which was always something that kept me from going on as it just made things harder to focus..(Not that having nothing but an finished Instrumental wouldn´t already be hard enough.. xD)  So lets see how it goes, but considering how critical I am with myself  I don´t keep my hopes too high :'''D

Yeah..
That´s pretty much all I wanted to focus on for now~

Recently I´ve been getting quite some comments on YouTube.. I wonder where they´re coming from all of a sudden.
So I´ve been thinking about making an "I´ve been to Tokyo before shit went down" Vlog, But that was already almost a year ago so Idk if it still makes sense xD
Mayb I should just ask around~