Long time no see, ey? :'D
I´ve been thinking about continuing to write blog again for a while now, mainly because would like to practise japanese~ While I won´t do it here, I figured that I might at least post the english version on this page because why not.
After all it might help me get back on track, which is long overdue to be honest...
For the last 4, or something, years I´ve been borderline burned out since there are just way too many things that I would like or have to do, besides housework, work and general shit.
And as probably everyone noticed by now, several issues ~ mainly "lovely people", that brought me fully back into self-loathing, paired with the current "nothing to look forward to, everything is hopeless" pandemic~ I became absolutely incapable of dealing with stress hahaha.
So today I finally decided that it was time to try something that I tought about for a while, but didn´t because I felt like I wouldn´t be able to make enough progress that way (lol, I basicly made no progress at all in the last 2 years so it´s about time hahaha)
And that would be, trying to fit my main-interests into seperate weeks~
I really have no idea how to say it but basicly I would like to have one week where I focus mainly on music related stuff, the next week I´d like to focus on all that YouTube fuss, then I want to focus on sewing, Make-up and fashion non-sense and then basicly just start with music again~
The only things that I´d still keep up daily, besides work and responsibilities are fitness and learning japanese.
And I might also want to try to give myself a day per week at which I really do nothing at all, which is something I usually only do when I am sick. And that doesn´t happen that much, at least not if we´re speaking of "socially accepted sicknesses". ( Yeah, I know. Looking at my recent progress it seems like I pretty much do this everyday but unfortunately this is not the case haha)
Given the circumstances, I´m not sure if I´ll be able to improve again from now on.. But I´d really like to become the person that I used to be in 2015/2016, before shit started to crumble back down, again.
I´m also it sure how long I´ll keep up posting one here this time (it´s kinda lonely buhu) and I don´t know if I´ll propperly do so during the "music" and "YT" weeks but it´s probably quite a good place for the sewing stuff~ So yay? xD~
