Video incoming~

 Hellow~~

It´s three in the morning, I just got my "script" done and finished recording my new video~ Yay :D

Is it gonna be good? Most likely not really. Especially the first part is probably full of  "not being able to focus"..
But hey, I´ve got something done~


I have an approx. 12 hour shift waiting for me, which starts in 7 hours and after that I´ll be at Yus birthdayparty, so I´m not quite sure when I´ll  be able to finish editing but I hope it´s gonna be Sunday, as I really didn´t have that much to record anyways.

So new cringe material might come either Sunday or Monday

But I gotta say that I didn´t quite follow the "practise my instruments" part that well haha...
I played Keyboard for like 10 minutes while my food was on the stove so...  Such a shame haha
But well... Babysteps are better than no steps at all, ey?

Shall we give this yet another try?..

 Olla~
Yeah, idk what I´m doing with my life to be honest haha.

I just feel like trying to write blogs again because it used to motivate me so much back in the days but since I´m kinda the only one that does this, I have no idea how long I´m gonna keep it up. Haha
In the end it might just feel like I´m talking to myself all the time and that´s probably not going to be that helpful but well.. We´ll see..

But since I´m.. especially during this great, lovely year.. feeling like I´m not making any progress in anything and just seem to stand on one same spot, I need some place where I can keep track of my "accomplishments" or whatever, so yay.


To be honest. I´ve literally wasted most of this life year and only managed to lose interest in the things that I used to enjoy the most. Top. (but to be fair... I´ve been quite handicapped, both with my "family" and aquaintances but also healthwise haha)
Only thing that I still really enjoy is playing video games but well. I didn´t suffer trough failed attempts and depression for half of my life just to end up in front of my consoles, ey?


So nevermind, As every week I made some plans that I wanted to get trough with by the end of it, but since everything seemed rather pointless, I never really did and just felt worse about it haha. And the things that I did went kinda unnoticed by myself.



With that being said I´m just gonna start to write down some weekly tasks here again and try to keep up keeping track of my progress or something. Wuhu~~
At least for the things that are not too private haha



Sooo~~
Since it´s already thursday.. I´m not going to put much in here..
just

~write the script for the video that I wanted to make almost two weeks ago haha
~ record said video (and maybe put it online but I´m not sure if I´ll have enough time for that)
~ practise my instruments daily (-guitar for now)
~ and learn a bit japanese so that maybe one day I´ll finally be able to unerstand that shit..





Also~
~be ashamed because I still didn´t bother fixing the dress that I´ve talked about in my last post haha (tho I´ve bought the fabric.. That is something I guess.. :'D)
~ and be even more ashamed because I feel like giving up on singing (for now?.. I don´t know...)


And to spice this stupid post up I´ll give you a picture of a very relaxed and brave Baby that wasn´t bothered by me trying to cut his nails :D